maybeoneday.

there is one thing that i'll never ask from you.
because i know you.
your beliefs
your outlooks
your perspectives.
i know you.
i know the person you have grown to be
and how you are.
how youll respond to people, situations, environments
[although, you do surprise me every now and then]

and it would be way to selfish of me to ask.
too needy, clingy[?maybe?, no that's not the right word.. but]
no matter how much i'd want, like, love to have this done..
i dont know if ill ever have the courage to bring it up
or to ask you of this "favor".
especially since its so different from what youre used to..

but maybe one day.
if i gather up the strength..
if ever, if ever.
ill probably do it hidden-ly.
embedded within something else.
and ill just leave it up to you to be open minded about it
to fully realize what im trying to let you know, realize, understand.
to invite you.
[hopefully theres a few who know what im referring to]
but.
sigh.

and if that one day comes.
ill let you decide for yourself.
i wont try to convince you.
or change your mind.
ill let you think what you want to think
and believe what you want to believe.
....and as selfish as it may sound,
id want you to pick and go along with..
im sorry
im just ....
never mind.
=T
thats it.