ENVY

is such a nasty little bugger.
"..its human nature",
but does that reason give it the permission to exist?
or that little mindset of "we're human" and that we [supposedly] cannot control our emotions just lays down an excuse for us to use?

it causes people to act in ways never fathomed of.
JEALOUSY.
jealous of what you may not have, and what others got a hold of
jealous of others success, attention, praise, belonging,
materialistic, spiritual, physical, emotional,
whatever it maybe
whatever falls in between the tiny crevices of each category
causes so much drama, so many problems,
upset, worried, bothered people
which grow into larger predicaments because of the actions that fall behind this raging jealousy and envy
all of which could have been avoided if we weren't so "human"

but being human is just something we obviously cannot avoid
theres no point in attempting to alter our DNA
because then, if we were to change the conditions of our emotions,
what else would go along with it?
..
i guess we just have to remember, and just keep the mindset that what causes such jealousy is the care [but then again, maybe its just insecurity]
care enough to notice everything.
selfish, because they love you that much.
..i dont know if this make sense to you, but whatever.

tell me

why do i put up with you?
blah blah, you can say that i love you,
and you put up with your loved one's mistakes and downfalls
because you care for them.
but if theyre constantly doing the same irritating thing over and over again,
why do you have to be the one to put up with their crap?
youve told them whats up and tried to help,
but they dont get the picture;
or if they do, it never lasts.

but caring so much for them,
being there for them seems like its the right thing to do,
something you should, have, willing to do,
because thats how much they mean to you

i just hate how you can put the people you love on a pedestal,
cater them, give them your top priority,
and they dont notice a deng thing you do for them.
every favor is left unnoticed
and of course you dont do these things for praise, thanks and acknowledgment,
but out of the kindness of your heart..
but its always nice to be appreciated..

arianne,

i miss you
i really did/do
i feel like i havent talked to you in ages.
thanks a million for talking to me in the parking lot
and sorry if you got in trouble

but really,
i dont want this anymore
i just cant
oh man. nonis. =T
enough is enough right?
i miss you
i need you more.
i need you MOORE
i need you dagdag [dugdug]

thanks for getting me
i love how we have the babies and our own raffies
teehee =]
lawbyoubebeh.
with a heart felt passion
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it really meant a lot to me that you came
i know that this is quite late,
but thank you
sorry for missing out last tuesday
i should have came..
but we have the rest of our lives right?
see you soon,
hopefully.