tired.

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do or do not

there is no try.
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i've been running around in circles trying to get to you.
i'll reach every checkpoint unfailingly,
but you always seem to add another barrier
or another obstacle for me to overcome.

i feel so defeated because no matter how much i do,
i always seem to fall short of what's needed or expected.

and it's just so sad because i've really been trying so hard
to get a mere ounce of your attention
to how you used to look at me or need to talk to me
or how you used to crave to be with me
because no matter how many hours, days, weeks, months of being together,
it still it was never enough..

but i guess this is what i get for refusing you before.
because now you're blind to how much i'm silently wimpering for you to notice me again.
it has all backfired, when i had no bad intentions at all.

but i have no excuse. or justified reason for my constant efforts.
i just miss you is all.
and its just scaring me
leaving me desperate
helpless
insecure
worried
and incomplete..
because i'm running out of ways in trying to get to you.

maybe ill see you later
and hopefully get that chance to talk to you..
that is if only you haven't forgotten about me [yet/already]..